Thursday, January 31, 2008
my testimony is not epic, neither is it dramatic.
i live with my mother and 3 younger sisters, the youngest is still in primary 5. My father was the sole bread winner for my family until he met with an accident at his workplace. As an aircraft maintenance engineer, he was working on planes where he fell from the hangar. this happened when i was in secondary 3 and he passed away.
it felt surreal one day when someone called me at home (i was alone that day) and said your father is in the hospital. and then he was gone. Just shortly before this, i gave my life to my Lord, Jesus Christ and became a christian. During the funeral and all, i was lost for words and cried day and night. Questions of the future crept up on me. Only with the strength of my heavenly Father, i was able to carry on with life and even comfort my family. He really pulled me through, set me on my feet with His Fatherly love and gave me strength to live.
With my father gone, my mother had to bear the burden of the family. We have no relatives in singapore and our friends were mainly fellow hong kong people who migrated as well. We had some form of insurance but other than that, we had no financial abilities at all (we are all students). My mother had not worked for 20+ years. All we could depend on was my parent's savings.
My mother has since 2005 started working as a cashier in NTUC. Her pay is not high and her hours are terrible. for her to come back into employment must have been extremely tough for her, especially when she had to balance taking care of my sisters as well. i'm in university with no scholarship and all my sisters are progressing up the normal education ladder. so i would say that my family is poor.
one thing that i have learnt since i became a christian and my father leaving and now, my mother is working is that God is faithful and real. Let you in on a little "secret", i have never had a lack in the area of my finances. Whenever i was broke (i have no allowance, only my own savings since young), God sent people to bless me, whether as a gift or from bursaries. Whenever i needed clothes, God sent people to bless me with gifts of clothings. I must testify that i have eaten well all my life and blessed with a small but good house to live in. This is not to boast of my financial management skills (i have none) or people are SO nice to us but it is really the blessings of God working in my life. His hand is never coincidental, help always come at the right time for me.
I really want to say that God is good and His blessngs are abundant. i believe that He has plans that are much bigger for me as well as for you. In romans 5:6-11, it says
"You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation."
While i was still a sinner, God paid a MUCH bigger price for me and i am extremely thankful to Him. my debts to Him are now so great yet He demands nothing from me. do you have any areas of your life that you are helpless and struggling, God says that He will help you. Just call Him and He will be there with you. :) God Bless.
